I think it’s a pretty cool feeling not having any guy to talk to.  

You gave up on me, 100% gave up.

my eyes lids hurt from crying so much lately

I asked Brandon if he still stalks my social networks. He said he doesn’t anymore, ha. Okay good. Lol.

It’s been my birthday for an hour, and honestly all I want to do is cry.

I had a twisted dream last night. Containing a lot of my “past” guys, but not at all of my certain fella. blegh~

Last night I met up with Joey around 1am, we just parked at some old chucky cheese… then a damn ass cop stopped us asking if we had drugs. This cop was forreal creepin the whole time.

my step dad forreal came into my room, and was all “so i heard you have a boyfriend now” “he’s not my boyfriend” “well i don’t care, here’s a letter from your doctor. you need to get back on birth control” omg.

My birthday is next week, and I will finally be 20.  I kinda want to change up my though, but I don’t know how exactly I want to do it.  I just want something new I’m so bored with my hair.  I never fix it anymore anyways.

Today I got my yearly evaluation at work.  I got my raise and my new job “title.” I guess that’s cool.

I don’t know how to start off this post, but I want to talk about the guy I’m talking to now.  I don’t exactly know how I feel, but I do know that I do actually like him.  When I’m not with him I miss him, when I’m with him I’m happy.  Knowing that HE cares about me makes me happy, and I want him to go on knowing that I care as well…  I’m just really glad I met him when I did.

It’s cool that you’re not going to pick your girl over your friends. But when it happens 2 days in a roll, I can upset some feelings.

I absolutely hate you and I once called you my best friend.  For 6 years you brainwashed me with every single one of your lies.  Spread rumors about me when I asked you about them you just denied it.  Yes I did like you 5 years ago, not now and never will I ever again.  I honestly don’t see why in the hell you have such a big head about yourself thinking me and other girls are oh so in love with you.  No we all don’t even pity you, because you’re worthless.  You have nothing going for yourself.  Why would anyone want that?  Get over yourself.  Stay out of my life.  Stay out of my friends lives.  Just disappear like the rest of the people we graduated with did.

I was about to tell my mom to get my insurance card from my car.  Instead I went out and got it, when I opened the door to get it all I see if my weed bag with my pipe and condoms. WELP

I wish I knew how to react right now, but I’m just acting normal and shit.  I feel like I should be doing something productive to make my situation better, but there’s like nothing I can really do.  I’m trying to sketch, but surprisingly nothing is happening.